Dear Breakfast Clubbers, July, 2010

Been alone today and doing too much thinking. Have reviewed the past few years and have been trying to resolve the complicated turn of events, how I could have done better and what went wrong and all. I was so angry for a number of years and now know why. I knew Jan’s disease but kept it way back in the brain not letting it be a conscious given. They say it is often ten years before the disease is diagnosed. Most say I did a wonderful job caring for her but I still stew over where I could have done better and how I could have changed things yet knowing it was overall impossible. Guess all in my boat realize they, probably, have the same thoughts and wonders. Difference is that I verbalize mine. Cyndy has been so helpful. She is a great therapizer. Both kids call at least every three days or so to check on me. Had my appointment with a Psychiatrist. It was scheduled and I thought I should go. After about 45 minutes she said, “Why are you here?” The appointment was scheduled a couple of months before Jan passed and it was a month after. She said, “Now I see.” To make a short story shorter, I graduated after one appointment and pronounced at least semi sane. So far no need to lock me up.

Have art materials and some of Jan’s paintings and some of our collection of art to sell in the near future. I’ll be writing a letter to the 900 plus who we still have on the mailing list owning Jan’s art. I’ll also put it in “gil says”. I will photograph the pieces available and have them all ready to email to those of you, wishing the information. Haven’t been ready to do but am close to it. I will keep the prices as they are and have been for some time. If you want to be early or first on the list to receive this information, let me know with an email to dorergj@aol.com.

Just sold my super van. It’s going to a nice young couple doing jewelry. They will be able to now take their dog as well as camping equipment with them on the road to shows. That’s a hoot to me. I love all the differences of the art show exhibitors. They are all so different but still left brain people so loveable.

Chelsea is wonderful this time of year. We have Wednesday and Saturday farmers market. It’s so fun to buy from locals and the goods are so fresh. Beets taste like beets and not hunks of tastelessness. One exhibitor sells bread and it’s wonderful. I like good hard heavy healthy bread. Now someone will write back and say it is worthless calories and I know it but I’m half German. Enough said.

Planning a trip west later in the year. I got an Associate of Arts from Taft Jr. College in California. After three semester at Central Michigan I ran out of money and went to Taft where they gave us in state tuition. It was $8.00 a semester including all new books, pencils, paper, notebook and other things I don’t remember. Three of us rented a two bedroom house for $45 a month. I was so poor but it was a good experience and I have always wanted to go back and visit. Hitchhiked home. Fifty three rides and hopped a train going over the continental divide. Had to get out and run by the train to keep warm at the top. It was a coal burning steam engine and we got so dirty. Going through the tunnels damn near did us in. Oh well, that’s another story and now a trip west to see some sights and Taft and to Sedona to stay with my brother for a while. Guess we can call much of life good.

Love gil Stay kind to all and have a good night.